The backwater idol-worshipping Benin enclave in southwestern Nigeria might seem an unlikely setting to dream of flying in an airplane to distant lands, and especially to Am Mary's story is my impression of what she thought, spoke, and experienced during the difficult times in her life. This story begins with the betrothal of Mary and Joseph then focuses on Mary's memories of her life with Jesus.
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I hope that reading these descriptions will lead to a deeper understanding and appreciation of the Virgin Mary and provide a place for her in a courageous and modern society The title is the introductory statement of my first meeting with Fred. It seemed to be a funny little name for a cute little dog so full of intensity and an overflowing energy and an obvious love of life. At that introduction, my future heart surgeon won over a heart that had wandered through life, giving little thought to the needs and afflictions of God's creature Hannah Johnson is a contemporary American teenager bored with her Honor's English class, she has been assigned on the Holocaust.
How does she even believe these horrible things she is reading ever even happened? It was so long ago. Hitler could not have been as bad as the books portray him, could he? Called is not about chasing. It's not about going. It's not about us. It's not a "how to. It's about reflecting His light. It's not about aiming to please. It's about pleasing the King. The author's relationship with God allows her the honest conversations to discuss the feelings God surely knows. She is not ready for the loss she now faces. God gives comfort in the words of Scripture as well as the love of family and friends.
Grace is received from God in ways that truly demonstrate; we do not ask for it, Adventure, hardship, and incredible challenges are faced by three men who follow a mysterious star that they believe is from God. They come from different countries and have different reasons for following the star. Their story is one that relates to all people of faith who are challenged daily in their own quest of finding, and following, the true and living God. This book is a memoir of the first half of my life I'm hoping , growing up in suburbia USA.
Young life was a bowl of cherries, having all I needed and happy with it. My wants became my goals, and most were achieved. Dreams are fun to think about, but to turn them into reality takes planning and a strong desire. A coincidence is defined as a remarkable concurrence of events or circumstances without apparent causal connection. Why did I choose Coincidence as a title? God directed me to. He has kept his promise that he would never leave me nor forsake me and in so doing he protected me.
This was not mere circumstance or coincidence as many believe. I survived not by my own power or m Both grace and forgiveness have been extensively written about in the Christian community, yet too often, both have been misunderstood and misapplied. Much confusion, fear, and spiritual bondage has resulted from believing mistruths that have been taught on these subjects. In this book, the author has drawn on his many years of teaching, study and personal experience to address some of tho Learn to trust God and follow God's Word, in the middle of your mess, and he can turn your mess into a message.
You know what they say about change: That change starts on the inside, in our hearts and in our minds. Fourteen Days to Light, Hope, and Healing is the tool that you need to begin making those changes possible. Consider our lives on this earth described using geographical structures we may encounter representing some of the trials.
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Most of our lives are spent on the plains with flat contours, and sweeping landmasses filled with grass and all manner of vegetation. Many times, we encounter small creeks and expansive rivers with slow, flowing waters and raging rapids, respectively, that we need to c I was inspired to write this book How I Defeated My Mental Illness when I made the first step to get rid of all the past weaknesses in my life.
I went by the statement, "To thine own self be true. Now I have a new life and hope you enjoy testimony and my story When faith is all we have, we quickly learn that faith is all we need. Befriend Josh Dimaggio as his faith is tested and perfected through one of the most horrifying experiences a believer and father of two beautiful children could ever dream of enduring. The plot of this novel, based on a sequence of true events, is a breathtaking illustration of the supernatural strength living A Christian's Life is about living a life that is pleasing to God.
God is a God of love and a God of wrath. God is love, meaning He loves us all. God is a spirit that doesn't care about anyone's race, color, or creed. In this book, God revealed a lot that is not known, even to a Christian. To be a true Christian, it takes faith, sacrifice, dedication, consistency, and, most of all, a love for God The idea of writing this book was to express my thoughts of why a soul needs to exist in our society.
It was after I read about every event in history and how some led into violence and others didn't. There's always an incident that seems to happen, from the beginning of time up to now, that made me think, why? There must be an underlying event that is the cause, but what is this cause and effect? The entire trilogy book is designed to show that true faith can accomplish just about anything in a person's life.
The people that appear throughout this book show that if you have unwavering faith in God, anything, and I do mean anything, is possible. So from dodging a bullet on a battlefield to jumping over a canyon to flying the fastest airplane, you can do anything that you set your mind to, p Bonding with your child is one of the most rewarding experiences you will ever have as a parent. Although fathering has its share of challenges, it is worth the work to see your child evolve under your leadership.
There are no difficult children, just difficult situations. However, these can be managed if we apply the correct methods. Children need cultivation and care from their fathers in this e The festivities went on all night as the Ingawa celebrated the good luck and riches with eating and dancing Allaya's Redemption is an epic tale about evil and absolution unveiled through a fast-paced, multifaceted story spanning from BC to modern day. Hope in Me will take you on a month long journey filled with joy, tears, and inspiration.
Follow in the footsteps of five-year-old Carter Kettner, a Chicagoland boy who met everyone with a smile and every girl with a kiss on the lips. Carter was everything a parent could ever wish for and want in a son, except for that fateful day in February when he was diagnosed with a malignant brain st A naval captain wouldn't dream of making someone who had never sailed turbulent waters as his first mate. Instead, his desire is to recruit a seasoned veteran who not only has traversed stormy seas but has also lived to tell the tale.
Written from within the confines of a Texas prison, Biblical Bandages for a Broken Heart offers hope, peace, encouragement, and comfort to those who suffer fr Bedtime- the part of our day set apart for quiet reflection. A royal kingdom is shaken at its core by the choice of its only heir who was to rule the kingdom after his father's death. It was the family's tradition to give the firstborn son a name that would be indicative of how he would rule the kingdom.
Also, it was a long-established custom that the reigning king would marry a particular type of woman. However, this heir was attracted to the forbidden. For the eyes have it.
The spirit is what shines through the eyes, humans and animals alike. The mountain lion on the cover was the inspiration for this collection and the feel and flow of the work within.
This book will take you through the natural emotions of realizing whatever your true worth is. As you read about some of the painful events that occurred during my life, you will also have a better understanding of how I became the woman I am today and how each day is another step toward becoming a better person. Experiencing peer pressure, depression, being manipulated, or not knowing one's purpo It's National Superhero Day at Bobby's school. After taking a look at all his superhero toys, he decides to bring the most powerful superhero of all to school with him: All of the kids, and even Bobby's teacher, are surprised at first until Bobby explains why God is his superhero.
God Is My Superhero is a heartwarming story that teaches kids and parents why God is the most powerful superhero Caught in an innermost ring of circles, what I have learned about time. There is no comparison to our timeless Savior. Yet he still acts within our time. Our job is to work within precious time so we can receive his blessings. As the clock ticks, it tells me that he will be here real soon. Once upon a time, in a land not so far away, there lived a great King.
In the kingdom, the children were the greatest treasure to the King. In the shadows of the kingdom lurked an evil prince. His single purpose was to capture the children and take them from the King. A great tragedy occurred when one day the children were all struck with a deadly disease. A gray poisonous mist had been bre This is a true account of events that took place when the author set out to meet God.
Never having expected Him to turn up, she outlines each exciting, and often unexpected, eventful meeting with the accuracy of an eyewitness. As a young girl, Donna's dream was to help people. She first thought of becoming a nurse but felt that might be too emotionally challenging. Donna turned her direction toward the corporate world where she spent more than thirty years helping coworkers and leaders succeed in their jobs. Standing Firm details Donna's journey while working full-time and experiencing three brain injuries, melanoma, th Do you or have you ever experienced frustration due to unanswered prayer and you could not understand why your prayers are being hindered?
Have you as many others ever asked, "Why would God place both the tree of life and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil in the Garden of Eden together? Santa Claus tells one of his elves about Jesus Christ. He tells her that Christmas is not about Santa or presents; it is about the day that God gave us the savior of the world. This book takes many of the symbols of Christmas and shows how they are related to Jesus.
Do you believe that "true Love" exists? If you have poured your heart out to someone who has hurt you, you probably would want to say you hope you could say yes; you want to believe that there is true Love, but you are more doubtful than hopeful. You might be a person who, in your brokenness, has vowed to "never again" open your heart to another. You might have chosen to live a life devoid of Love This is the true life story of a four-year-old little girl who took over seven thousand volts of electricity thru her body. Doctors told her parents to plan her funeral because she would not survive a week.
Fifty years later, this is the story of my "life unarmed. Petunia was born with a deformity and has always felt excluded from friends because of how she looked. Now it is time for her to go to school for the first time, and she is terrified to be seen in public amongst her peers. Just as expected, she is met at school with name-calling and bullying from students in her class. Petunia is close to giving up hope when an unsuspected new friend comes On Monday, June 8, , a child was born. She was such a pure, unexperienced little girl, and all the cares of this world didn't even matter to her.
Boy, was she in for a rude awakening. If only she knew that being in this world would cause her so much pain, so many distractions, and that she would face so many things that little people in this world should never experience. If given the choice, Narrow is the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. There is no love in No Fish Boy Town, not even a drop. The courageous Fish Boy must venture through a far and narrow road to find what his town is missing! Through the strength of perseverance, the guidance of hope, and the desire for joy, Fish Boy finds a never-ending treasure, and it turns out that one happy heart can influenc Over the years, two people close to me said I should write a book.
This profound encouragement was initiated due to my intense life. My supporters believe people could benefit from my experience. On August 2 or early morning on the 3rd, , in my sleep, I received a message to write a book. You see, when I am sleeping, God has my total attention. Although I read my Bible almost daily, praise and Cases of kidney failure are skyrocketing worldwide, and rates of treatment for kidney failure are growing faster than the population.
It costs Medicare more for medical treatment than prostate cancer and breast cancer combined, forcing many people to choose conservative management not to treat kidney failure with dialysis or a transplant. A battle for souls wages on in the small South Texas town of San Vidro. The demon in charge of the area, Otis Bub, utilizes all methods at his disposal to trap souls. One of his many scams to lead souls to perdition involves a crucifix found floating in the Rio Grande that many take to be a miracle.
Through the help of a dimwitted deputy, Harold, and his sheriff, Jude, the crucifix finds its way t This is the story of Joseph's, as well as his family's, journey in the world of the disabled, a world plagued by discrimination, suffering, isolation, and cruelty. It is also a story of the love, determination, bravery, and kindness extended to Joseph by the people who were willing to see beyond his disabilities and allowed themselves to be entranced by his beautiful smile, his contagious laugh, h Our son was going through a difficult time in life.
Some said he was "working on his testimony". During that difficult time when we didn't know where he was, what he was doing, or even if he was alive, God gave Jim a verse from Isaiah We praise the drug addict who is two years clean. We honor the alcoholic who is five years sober. But we tend to kick our spiritual leaders to the curb when we find out they are not what we want them to be. Who is going to reach out to the pastor who has fallen into the infidelity trap? Someone has to make themselves available to the youth minister or worship leader who is currently addicte Many people want a ring and forget that it's more than just a ring; marriage is loving your spouse even if the ring has lost its shine.
Marriage has its ups and downs, and if you love each other, the love will only grow stronger no matter what tests in life come, but it must start with God, who is love and who shows you how to love each other. God will open your eyes to your spouse's needs and how Angel Michael Comes to Visit is the first in a series of children's books that teaches children and their caregivers about the wonderful power angels, God's lit messengers, who come to earth to help us when we feel alone or in need of support and courage. Angel Michael is the power angel who wants you to feel safe, secure, and protected.
It is his designated task to help you when you feel afraid. I was grinning from ear to ear the day I received Squeakers. A pet of my very own is something I had always hoped for, but little did I realize how such an adorable little guinea pig could get both of us into so much trouble A day McKenna will never forget. Not only was it her twelfth birthday, but the day twelve mysterious travelers rolled into Oplin, Texas during a fierce snowstorm.
They became stranded so the community welcomed them until the weather cleared. This would be a Christmas the community would never forget. No one could imagine the impact the stranded strangers would have on the commun Just beyond the cross, Jesus is redeeming us in salvation and directing us to change into the new creature of second Adam. This Adam is spiritually quickened in holiness, divesting burying himself of first Adam of the flesh 1 Cor.
Pratt to be exact. I am the loveable and adorable canine member of the Pratt family, trustworthy brother to Kat and Luke Pratt. For non-dogs, Kat and Luke are pretty cool. However, they seem to experience a lot of new adventures. Lucky for them, I am around to help them out. Charley's Trail is about a little girl who goes over to her Mamaw and Pop's cabin every day for a visit. On her journey, she meets several animals who are having a crisis. Charley helps them by sharing what Jesus would say for them to do.
The outcome is quite awesome! Charley loves Jesus and has been in church since she was born. Whether you are young seeking to fit in to a world seemingly absent of God, or are worn and seasoned by age while seeking God and His purpose, travel your journey with the knowledge that God, the Creator of life, has put His spirit inside you and has plans for your life. The promise of Christ's return should have a controlling effect on the life of every Christian. A close New Testament study reveals the Messianic promise to be the foundation and focus of the first century church.
Like them, we should always be prepared to give an answer for "the hope we have". It is a subject of every book except Philemon and 3 John. This is the story of a young Dutchman who becomes a man very quickly. This is a story of his friendship and devotion to a full-grown gorilla named Tico. Together they fight outlaws, pirates, and wild natives.
This is a story of trying to overcome adversities Poetic Vision is a collection of poems used to enlighten one's mind on the world and the various situations we find ourselves in. To let the world know that God is still in control. The author touched base on all facets of life, the joy and the pain, the struggles and triumphs. The author's goal is to bring a ray of God's gracious light to gloomy circumstances in your life. Do you ever wrestle with the questions "How do I measure up in this world? In your quest to identify and connect with your greater purpose in this world of ever-changing expectations and norms, Royal Reflections is a journey where we will discover answers to these questions with clarity and confidence.
When Faith Barnett climbed the steps of the caboose on Chuck Winston's freight train, it was the first time she ever set foot outside Wilke County. Stowing away with Chuck would get her to college, but school would not prepare her for the difficulties of the adult world. Dissembled in a life of financial instability could effectively cause depression and frustration.
After retiring from twenty years of divorce practice, the author embarked on a biblical study-quest to determine how his experiences might benefit any husband and wife relationship, but especially those who are struggling. He pursued how relationships might be "built up" rather than "torn down. So long the body of Christ has struggled between two opinions concerning the kingdom of God which Christ the King established on the earth upon His resurrection.
Is the kingdom for now or later? Is the kingdom in us to be manifested on the earth while Christ is in heaven or we wait? From the Day of Pentecost in the first century of the Christian Era to our present day, we have refused to recognize It's Saturday morning, and Jacob is about to go outside on an adventure. With excitement, he heads out the back door of his house to see what he can discover in his backyard. As Jacob makes his way through his yard, he finds the most interesting creatures. It amazes Jacob that there is so many living things in his backyard, and each encounter brings something new and beautiful in its own way.
What can God do in a life totally devoted to walk in the footprints of our Savior? Marv Knipfer, just a simple concrete man, is a perfect example of what can happen when one is truly born again John 3: I had the honor and privilege of being the wife of this wonderful man, full of love and generosity for fou On October 7, , God showed me the ending of the book.
As I completed the book with the knowledge he had given me, the name of the book came to me. Our Savior's New Revelations just popped into my mind. It was after recalling when Satan's demon was standing on the hood of the car, looking for the man he thought was coming to defeat Satan. He never even looked at me, a w Discover why you are struggling and finding it difficult to connect. Do you feel you're just surviving? The Bible refers to joy and a peace beyond our circumstances. I wanted joy and contentment in my life.
This set me on a quest to find pure joy. God led me on a path to relinquish the pain of the past. He had me revisit the even The reason I wrote The Book of Revelation, which I did not mean to write, is to try to help people to understand. I own many commentaries on this subject. Many of them try to come to the truth, but everything was so misleading. It's not that they are trying to be dishonest. There is just so much information out there. They think you can't understand it. But it is simple. It accentuates God's attributes and applies it to man as he is in the image of God.
It encourages the reader to walk according to the Scripture and to fulfill the work of God as he is created to do. The greatness of God is one of many attributes that is accentuated and applied to the Why some of us cover up for them? Why are we living in fear? Who is the barbarian? Why are we doing or not doing anything about it? This is a story about a girl and her extraordinary rescue dogs. The girl is my daughter Kelsey and the dogs are named Izzie and Sadie. The four of us are a family united by love and separated through the cruelty of other humans.
The only way Kelsey and I can deal with our tragic loss is to write about it. The purpose of this book is to show Christians that they have God-given tools to handle problems in their lives that the holiest person in the Old Testament did not have. God himself said that Job, who lived in Old Testament times, was the most blameless and upright man on earth. Severe, painful tragedies hit Job and they took away all of his most loved earthly treasures.
Job endured a gre Cherry Andrews is a bright, beautiful, redheaded girl. On the outside, she looks like a normal ten-year-old, but Cherry just happens to be a child prodigy. Not only has she won multiple competitions playing the piano, but she has also tested at a genius IQ level. She is now preparing to enter into the eighth grade after having skipped yet another grade because her teachers and parents feel she nee God changed me by placing me on a cliff looking down into the abyss!
He allowed me to feel what that would be like. I knew I could never die, and I was going to live forever. However, where I found myself was like being in a seat, traveling out into deep space where there was nothing but blackness. I can truly say it was a fate worse This book is about not giving up. There is no problem too hard for God to handle. Keep trusting, believing, and holding on to your faith.
Nothing is unachievable or unchangeable when we keep God first in our life Out of your heart flows the issues of life and in your heart lie the deepest wounds that pierce the soul. The scars of death, remorse, murder, and betrayal: These four young boys have lived most of their lives in solitude and self-exile until they were called to be students at the Elohim Academy.
My story begins with my name, which is in the title of the story. My mama said that before she gave birth to me and my brothers and sisters, she went out one morning and saw the beautiful glistening dew on the grass. Right then, she decided that one of her babies would be named Dewey. Then, later as she was just finishing work on her nes Hi There, are you interested in books that use animals in a fun way to share Biblical truths with some fun facts about that animal?
Well then, this series call Grandma's Story Cupboard is for you. Our first set of stories are holiday ones. For Thanksgiving - "No Thanksgiving for Me" is about Tommy the turkey, who thinks he is the smartest turkey in the flock. But he quickly finds out that Filled with Scripture application and transparent life experiences, he gets to the point with each chapter. This is a must-read for all people - students to experienced adults, as a reminder Ann sat on her porch swing, contemplating the excitement, the danger, and the fear of what she had just lived through.
Choices, she thought, are made every day, every waking moment. What to wear, what to eat, what to do and even what you say. Some choices keep you from looking into the mirror while other choices make little impact. Have you ever wanted to read the Bible but thought you'd have a difficult time understanding it?
Do not be afraid: Chaplain Fred Woodward is here to be your guide. Easy to read and with clear explanations, this book will enable readers to study the books of the Bible and build a foundation of biblical comprehension. A great book for those who do not know Jesus Christ and for those who want to deep Have you ever found yourself flipping back and forth through the pages of the four gospels, trying to piece together events surrounding the birth of Jesus?
All of these scriptures contribute meaningful detail, but the narrative is scattered and the sty So how many weddings have you attended or officiated? How did it go? Let's see now, how was it? It all led up to the bride, in all her glory, being escorted down the aisle by her dad then presented to the groom! So how many weddings have you observed, or if you are one of the clergy, have you become involved i Are you seeking to learn about Christianity, a new Christian, or a Christian seeking spiritual growth? Through the use of Scriptures and the author's storytelling, one can learn to live utilizing the power of the Holy Spirit.
Colander Christian is written in a way that makes the reader feel as if he were sitting across the kitchen table from the author, sharing a cup of coffee. As the wheelchair-accessible van climbs the hill toward year-old Annie Behr's new home, she senses that her life will be changed forever. This feeling is confirmed when she sees the once elegant old Victorian house that her family has just inherited from Great Uncle Truth B.
From the beginning to the end of the story, puzzles, mysteries, and secrets abound with every twist and tur The African American Guide to the Bible makes the case for the relevance of the Bible from the perspective of people of color. It presents a comprehensive biblical view of topics of interest to African Americans and clarifies racial issues for white people. Part 1 addresses the inspiration of the Bible by giving evidence for its authenticity. A considerable amount of time is spent on exami Sneaky Goes to Palm Beach is a delightful story about the adventure of a little boy and his mother who discover a three-eyed monster while visiting the little boy's grandparents in Palm Beach.
Blake and his mother loved to go on walks on the beach when the sun went down behind Blake's grandparent's condo. Blake and his mother would walk for miles, and on one particular night, they discovered huge She helps Mama make bread, feeds the chickens, and hauls armloads of wood to the big box by the kitchen stove. But she's small for her age, and her bossy big brother won't stop teasing her. Now Mama is ill, and Emma is scared.
Without Mama, their little house would be lonely and sad. Every one of us desire love. We all have someone or something that we love. We desire the love of our spouse, our parents, our children. We all have love for family members, friends, or associates. However, there is no greater love than the love that our Heavenly Father has for us: He loved us so much that he sent his only begotten Son to be sacrificed Tailor-Made is a book orchestrated by God.
It was written to restore hope to a dying world, and to extend the opportunity to rediscover his unconditional love. God wants to give reassurance he is still in control, despite all the chaos displayed in the world today. God still wants to manifest mightily in the lives of the believers right now. He wants to bring the unimaginable into ex Without my past, I would never be who I am today. God has taken all the pain and turned it around for my good and heaven's gain. Once you walk through the door of healing, it's your responsibility to embrace your healing. We can get deliverance and still not be free.
We can be delivered from abuse, but never truly free because we are still looking through eyes and mindset A big surprise awaits Anna and her friends while performing in the Thanksgiving school play! Carole Hyla Sheppard writes and illustrates children's stories set in the background of her beloved California coast The teaching of the Holy Spirit began with an understanding of the prophecies of Daniel, the key to understanding the words of many of the other prophets, especially those of Zachariah and those of John in the book of Revelation. Here are just a few o Snyder's goal was to simplify the biblical record, so that the average reader could fully understand and appreciate the subject matter.
The book is the result of extensive research that treats the entirety of King David's life with the respect it deser Thoughts from Heaven is an example of God's use of ordinary people as vessels to share his message. He used a lame man as a visual example. He also used a man with a speech impediment to speak to the masses. Thoughts from Heaven is God's way of sharing his thoughts of comfort, strength, encouragement and peace. It matters not who we are or where we are, the Heavenly Father speaks to us daily. Would you like to tell us about a lower price?
When the doctor tells Gail that she needs to lose weight in a hurry, she decides she'd better buckle down and make serious changes in her life. But when the vet tells her that her faithful companion Zoe might not have the luxury of time, Gail gets down to business. Can Gail and Zoe commit to the changes that just might save their lives, or will temptation prove too much to overcome? Find out in this new short story by Laura Kipwick, author of Untrainable. So it seems to me that God must have A special place in His heart for dogs.
Read more Read less. Kindle Cloud Reader Read instantly in your browser. Product details File Size: September 7, Sold by: Share your thoughts with other customers. Write a customer review. Showing of 3 reviews. Top Reviews Most recent Top Reviews. There was a problem filtering reviews right now. Please try again later. Kindle Edition Verified Purchase. What have I done to be left at home? He packed every thing neatly and rejoined Everhard, who had now dried up his tears, and found his spade and basket. They set off together into the wood, and when they were tired of rambling about, they dined under a large tree, where they rested during the heat of the day, and the old man told Everhard many tales, whilst the pleasant sunlight came through the transparent green leaves, and played and flickered as they moved about upon the moss and tree trunks beneath.
The flowers were quite white, and so transparent that the green leaves could almost be seen shining through them; a poor little quail had fallen out of its nest and hurt its wing; Everhard carried it home in great triumph to nurse. Coming home they had to pass through a village where there was a fair, and they met a club walking with blue staves, with the accompaniment of a band of music and gay flags; so, on the whole, Everhard had not once time to think of his disappointment. As soon as they reached home, the first business was to put the bird in a cage, and then to set the flower roots.
Who can calculate the amount of perversity, misanthropy, and all sorts of evil feeling which was averted from Everhard by the opportune kindness of this one day! Not averted only, but changed into wholesome human affection, which, in after life, kept him from the evil of the world, and abided by him in his days of darkness, when all the imposing array of creeds and precepts broke under him like reeds, as he leaned on them for help.
A day, an hour, often contains the vital principle of what is elaborated into the conduct of years. The next day all the party returned home. Louis was full of the wonders he had seen, and the coach was laden with purchases. Madame Burrows, to make some amends to Everhard for his disappointment, had brought him a beautiful new knife and a large kite, which his uncle good-naturedly undertook to teach him to fly.
One fine morning, in harvest time, Madame Burrows said, at breakfast, "I wish, Father Martin, if you are not engaged, you would go with the doctor to visit a poor Irishman who lies ill in one of the barns; he has come over every harvest for many years past, and now, I fear, he is very ill. See what things are needed, and they shall be sent.
The poor man had been ill some days, but had struggled on with his work till that morning, when he fainted in attempting to rise from his straw. The doctor pronounced it a bad case of typhus fever, and recommended that the rest of the labourers should be lodged elsewhere. But the precaution came too late. Ten other of the unfortunate creatures sickened shortly, and five died notwithstanding every assistance that medical skill and kind nursing could bestow. Madame Burrows, who, in spite of her imperious nature, had a genuinely kind heart, and a great deal of good sense, took such judicious steps, that the dreadful disease was confined entirely to the spot where it first showed itself, and did not spread either to the labourers on other farms, nor into the town itself.
Madame Burrows and Father Martin were indefatigable in their attentions and kindness to the sufferers. When the excitement caused by this calamity had somewhat subsided, and things began to fall into their accustomed course, Father Martin complained of being ill. At first he only felt languid, which he attributed to the anxiety and fatigue he had recently undergone, but the next day he grew worse, and could not leave his bed. He had a presentiment that he should not recover. The only distress this gave him was, that he must leave his dear child, Everhard.
He did not know how long they might be left together, so he lost no time in calling him to his bedside to give him what strength and comfort he could. I shall not be very far from you, though you will not be able to see me. Will you think of this, and try not to be very unhappy when I am gone? We shall not be long separated. You will come to me at the end of a few years. If we lived in this world, you would have to go away and leave me to follow your studies; and how much better it is that I should go into the safe keeping of God and his saints.
The dead never change; and when you come to me I shall love you as much as I do now. Nay, nay, my child," continued he, perceiving that poor Everhard's grief was uncontrollable, "you must not rebel against the Divine will in this manner. Come, let us say the Litany of Jesus together; it will compose us both.
Everhard was removed from the chamber almost by force, and he saw his dear friend no more. He assembled with the rest of the household in the chapel, where the coffin was laid on a bier surrounded with wax tapers, a solemn service was performed, and then the remains of the good old man were conveyed to the vault, and laid beside those of Everhard's father. At first, Everhard's grief was not so violent as might have been expected, it was rather a stunned astonishment, for it seemed to him quite impossible that so great an affliction could have been laid in earnest upon any one.
Father Martin had given him his missal, and he would sit for hours, with it upon his knees, not reading, but gazing vacantly at it. He sat at table when he was summoned, and ate mechanically what was put upon his plate, but he spoke to no one, nor did he seem to notice any thing. Those round him, albeit little accustomed to notice his ways, became alarmed, his mother endeavoured by kind words and even caresses to rouse him, but he paid no attention to her, and escaped the first moment to his old station where he had left his missal.
A priest from a distance who had administered the last sacraments to Father Martin, offered mass in the chapel the following Sunday. As the service proceeded, the conviction that his dear old friend was really gone, and that his place must evermore be supplied by a stranger, flashed on Everhard as for the first time. He screamed aloud, and was removed from the chapel in hysterical convulsions; a violent passion of tears followed, after which he was put to bed and a composing draught administered.
He did not again relapse into his former stupor, but it was very long before he regained his usual cheerfulness. Some time after Father Martin's death, Everhard and his brother were sent to Bruges to be educated at a seminary, which was of great repute in those days. English Catholics of the higher classes were obliged to send their children from home if they wished them to receive a liberal education, Catholic schools not being at that time permitted in England. The remainder of Everhard's childhood passed without any thing to be recorded. He and his brother outgrew their childish bickerings, and became the friends that brothers ought to be.
When Everhard was seventeen and his brother eighteen they returned home, Louis to take his place as the head of the family, and Everhard to have a little relaxation previous to proceeding to Rome, to study for the priesthood at the English College there. Madame Burrows felt a mother's pride at seeing the fine looking young men her sons had become, and all her ambition was more than gratified when she beheld them cordially received into the ranks of the country gentlemen, amongst whom their frankness, good humour, and keen sportmanship, soon rendered them great favourites.
A letter from M. After some demur, Madame Burrows gave her consent; she exhorted him to be very steady, and on no consideration to exceed his allowance, assuring him that she would not advance one single farthing beyond. She then embraced him, and saw him depart with great composure. Louis showed much more feeling on the occasion, for though his new importance had all the flush of novelty with it, yet it did not reconcile him to the loss of Everhard's society, and it would be doing him a great injustice were we to omit to inform the reader that, unknown to his mother, he added a hundred a year to Everhard's allowance out of the income allowed to himself during his minority, and that his first act on coming of age was to double the amount.
Everhard accomplished his journey to Paris without accident or adventure, and a new era in life began for him. A girl of seventeen, fortune favouring, may be made into a very interesting heroine; people will believe all that can be said of her beauty, wit, and wisdom, and will patiently read through three or even six volumes full of her adventures, and find themselves much edified with the perusal. But a lad of seventeen!
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All his graces of childhood have run to seed, and the victims of manhood have not yet replaced them; he is no longer the chubby darling, of the red shoes and coral; nor yet the interesting child in a picturesque hat and tunic; but an unfinished, uneasy biped, a plague to every body within his reach, and with whose doings and sufferings, nobody, not absolutely obliged, wishes to have the least concern. The gentle reader will easily sympathise with the dismay in which Madame du Pont was thrown, when her husband informed her that he had invited his nephew to pay them a visit on his way to Rome.
Madame du Pont was a woman of quality of a certain age. She felt a motherly vocation for forming the minds and manners of interesting young men, but then they must be - no matter stopping to define what. But she knew when she saw them, who would be likely to profit by her lessons, and she was quite sure beforehand that Everhard would be utterly destitute of all the qualities of an interesting young man, - that he would be awkward, that he would be a caricature, that, in short, he would be altogether unbearable.
So she made up her mind that he should be satisfied with a very short visit, and be quite as anxious to proceed to Rome as she could be to see him depart. They were interrupted in their conversation, whatever it might be, by the entrance of Monsieur du Pont, who led Everhard by the hand. Everhard you have so often mentioned? The smile of a young beauty loses in meaning what it has in brilliancy, it is the mere expression of personal pleasure or coquettish display; it wants the penetrating sweetness that makes the object feel it as a peculiar favour, not bestowed lightly or without intention.
Madame continued to ask him questions about England, until the entrance of visitors interrupted her. When the visitors had departed, Madame du Pont began to consider whether it might be possible to make her handsome nephew presentable in good company on so short a notice. As one of the set once said of her, "She contrived to be on respectful terms with God, whilst she kept up an agreeable acquaintance with the Devil.
And then your clothes, oh, Heavens! However, there is no fear for your success in society; every thing English is the rage just now; you will soon become un jeune homme charmant , with the advantages you have. Now ring the bell for Gaspard; we must lose no more time in talking.
Tell La Force to be here early, that he may dress monsieur's hair; in short, you will go to M. Go, Gaspard, say the things are for M. When he was gone, his aunt gave Everhard a long lecture on the extravagance of paying tradespeople, and the necessity of taking care of his money for things that were indispensable; then she dismissed him to his own apartment to take some rest and refreshment.
When he was alone, Everhard could hardly help smiling at the two lectures on economy he had recently received. His mother and his aunt both spoke on the same subject, and there the resemblance ended. He was tolerably fatigued, and in no mood to quarrel with either the rest or refreshment prepared for him; still he sat down and wrote a letter to his mother, informing her of his safe arrival; and a longer one to Louis, telling him all that had happened since they parted. The "ministers of grace" did their spiriting to admiration.
Everhard could hardly recognise himself when he saw his reflection in a full-length mirror, even his aunt was hardly prepared for the improvement in his appearance. She expressed all the delight at his transformation of a child over a new doll, and allowed him to lead her to the carriage with a feeling of infinite complacency. Your French accent is admirable. The other day she gave a dinner that was very scanty, and the conversation became very scandalous. Tables for play were set out, at some of which parties were already seated.
The hostess was sitting at the upper end of the room, talking to a group of men who stood round her. Madame du Pont after paying her compliments, and presenting her nephew, glided to a sofa, where she perceived several of her acquaintances. Everhard stood beside her. He saw men whose names have become historical; men who gave the first impulse to that movement which was destined to convulse society to its centre; but as yet, all was imprisoned in a chaos of theories and disputations, the surface of society was not yet broken, and all that was uttered that evening seemed to have no higher aim than to make brilliant conversation.
After a while Madame du Pont sat down to ombre, and left Everhard to make his way for himself. She nodded graciously as he came up, but did not interrupt her conversation. You do not yourself believe one word of all you have been saying about woman's genius and equality. Out of the million of women who are flattered by being told they possess genius, not one ever achieves a work that endures, or that obtains higher praise than of being something very wonderful for a woman.
Scarce one has ever achieved any thing that, in a man, would be considered first rate. I do not belong to the sisterhood of 'women of genius' myself, so my testimony is disinterested. Look at history, which is a tolerable criterion. If ever, by an extraordinary combination of circumstances, a woman has, from her position, influenced her age and country, her name speedily becomes a historical doubt, and her actions fabulous.
The name of a woman has never authentically descended to posterity, unless preserved in the memory of some transcendent crime. No woman has ever succeeded in gaining lasting fame, but many have lost their reputation in the attempt. When a woman's affections are engaged, all her littleness disappears; women have been grand, almost superhuman, through the strength of love, but the moment they desire to distinguish themselves, they become stripped of the 'divinity that doth hedge' a woman. To be distinguished, seems a very grand thing, but to earn a name, is no holiday task; women are destitute both of patience and persistence, so no wonder that they fail, and their works appear ineffectual when measured beside those of really GREAT MEN who have laid out their lives in their work.
It is tolerant of crimes, and long suffering with dullness, but it shows no mercy to those who are different from other people. Grimm, "men have a natural instinct against incongruities; and that may explain the dislike and persecution, with which those men are received who come to it as prophets and teachers. All that stands apart from the mass surrounding it, ought either to have a class of its own to fall back upon, or else to carry the germ of a new order of things within itself; otherwise, it is an ineffectual singularity, without any significance to atone for its bad taste.
There is a sense of insecurity in the beginning of all change; we dread movement until we are fairly roused, and then we seem as if we could never know rest again. It is a pity we cannot calculate their action with precision, for then we might work miracles," said one who had not yet spoken.
Grimm, "ideas of permanence and endurance beguile the imagination of men because they do not seem to be impossibilities; we could never have the heart to labour if we did not hope that our works would live after us; in our heart, we each expect to attain immortality, though 'ready to vanish away' is the device inscribed by destiny upon us and all we do. The hope of achieving works which shall endure for ever, glimmers upon the horizon of things possible, like the elixir of life and the philosopher's stone, but none have arrived at the spot over which the star rests. The system holds together in this state till some trifle jars upon it, and then like other moulds which have become effaced, it is broken up for fresh combinations.
This is the secret priests fable unknowingly in their dreams of a 'new heaven and a new earth'; man reduces to chaos, and out of chaos God creates fresh worlds. I wish the lot had fallen to some one better able to convert you than I am," and rising from her place she allowed herself to be led across the room to the harpsichord, when she played and sang the recitative and air of "In vano alcun", from the "Armida".
After the expressions of admiration had somewhat subsided - M. Grimm said, "We shall have some difficulty, to maintain the supremacy of Piccini after such singing as that, however, we must support the honour of our friend as well as we can. Another and another song succeeded, and the party broke up at a late hour. During their drive home Everhard was quite unable to converse with his aunt; but as he kissed her hand, on parting from her for the night, she perceived that he looked handsomer than ever, so she was quite satisfied - much as she would have been with the success of some new point of costume on which she might have ventured.
Everhard found his way to his own room. All night he was in a vague reverie, rather than sleep; and the scene he had quitted, the lights, the music, the conversation, flitted in confusion through his brain, like scenes in a phantasmagoria. To-night, to begin with, she gave me a worked apron. I was not thinking of her. What do you think of him, the nephew?
But he is very shy, and does not know the value of his beauty; for all the softness of his eyes, he looks out of them as if they were given for nothing else but to see with. Still there is something piquant in so much innocence. That delicate bloom will not last long upon his cheeks in Paris. His face seemed to have gained meaning even in that short time.
You could live without sleep altogether, I think. CHAPTER V Everhard felt on awakening the next morning, much as one of the seven sleepers might be imagined to have done; but he soon became accustomed to his new way of life, for one day only led to another, brighter and pleasanter than the last. His aunt, quite satisfied with the impression he produced, made him accompany her wherever she went, and he had to share both her amusements and devotions. So Everhard's days passed on pleasantly enough. He was introduced to a perfumed, brilliant, luxurious version, of that hard, mysterious reality called LIFE.
He mixed in female society for the first time; hitherto he had seen no women but his mother and her attendants. His exceeding inexperience kept him from perceiving the licentiousness and immorality that lay under the graceful amenities of the society in which he was moving; though, it must be owned, it was a critical experiment. He felt within himself the movement of passions which were beginning to make him sensible of their existence; and the host of undefined tumultuous sensations which filled his soul without pointing to any definite aim, gave him a sense of life and power, an intoxicating sense of joy, in the mere fact of existence.
He was entering on the "heritage of HIMSELF", and felt endowed with new gifts and perceptions, a passionate desire after the beautiful in all things; all his faculties seemed bathed in an atmosphere of warm light; the crust of reserve and awkwardness, which had shielded him from himself, dropped off like scales; he had not been stimulated into precocious maturity, and there was no danger of his adding to the melancholy band of those "whose unripe blessedness has dropped away from the young tree of life", before it has fulfilled its beautiful promise.
The brief period between childhood and maturity is indeed the golden age of life! A fairy dust is thrown over all persons and all things, making that lovely which is not so; like eastern monarchs, who caused beauty and fertility to spring up for the moment, when they had to journey through desert and unlovely places, making all look rich and glad as they passed along.
Everhard remained four months in Paris; at the end of that time, a letter came from his mother, desiring him to fix an early day for his departure to Rome. This announcement came on Everhard like a thunderbolt. Going to Rome had become a vague abstraction which was to occur at an indefinite period, and, until this moment, he was not aware of all the disinclination to his profession that had grown upon him. To be a priest, under a "vow of obedience", was a very different thing to being one of his old saints travelling about from country to country, on errands of benevolence: He panted for some occupation that would call forth the energy which he felt pent up within him.
It came to an end, like all other things. Nothing to do - nothing to hope for - no danger - no enterprise - no variety. I shall die, if I am made a priest; can you tell me no way to get out of it? I fear there is no other career open to you; your lady mother would give neither help nor sanction to any change in your destination; besides, why should you wish for one? There is no need for you to be either a saint or a martyr, you will come and live in Paris; the women here, who are as fanciful about their confessors as they are about their doctors and lovers, will adjust the balance between you and their devotions; only think of the opportunity you will have of making a sensation when you come to preach!
Eloquence and you have it opens the way to every heart, to every thing to be desired in this world; it can cover a whole decalogue of sins; it is a regular enchanter's wand! You may have a glorious life; you may be a politician, a statesman; and, though vowed to celibacy, you may enjoy the devoted friendship of the loveliest women; any thing, every thing is open to you; there is no career like it for a man who knows how to run therein.
Be discreet, be prudent; that is the true secret of leading an exemplary life. So cheer up, and have no more foolish fancies. And now," said he, after a pause, "will you remain here whilst I dress? Madame du Pont had a migraine yesterday, and requested me to come early. Everhard hastened to his own room, where he remained alone with his own heart. He looked helplessly round for some one who might speak words of strong counsel to him; but there was no one. At length, with a start of surprise that he should not have thought of it before, he betook himself to his old resource in times of childish difficulty; he flung himself on his knees beside the bed, and with sobs and inarticulate words poured forth all his grief and perplexity.
He did not as heretofore, go to any of his favourite saints; it was from the service of God he shrank, and it was to that God Himself he went now in his agony of weakness. The only instant when man has any thing sublime about him, is, when prostrate before the invisible, he makes an offering of his own will and his own wisdom, desiring to be guided only to that which is best and wisest. Prayer is the appeal from the fluctuating incomprehensible aspect of this life, to Him who changes not. None but they who are sinking under some of the infinitely varied forms of human need and human weakness, can tell the strong consolation of taking refuge from their perplexities with one, "who knoweth all things, and to whom all hearts are open".
The remainder of that day passed as usual, but it seemed to Everhard that the beauty and delight which had fascinated him in this life of society had suddenly departed. The next morning, as he was preparing to pay some visits, he received a summons from his uncle.
Your mother has just sent me this letter, and desires me to advise you what course to take on the strength of it; but I think you are quite of an age to have a voice in the disposal of yourself. Your father bequeathed you to the Church, but you don't seem to me to have much vocation for it, at least you have shown none since you came here.
Did you ever hear of a distant relation, who is a prosperous India merchant, and making an income of more livres than I possess francs? I suppose you never saw him; he has started up like the good uncle or father at the last act of a comedy. There is a letter from him to your mother; read it, and see if you are disposed to close with the offer.
You had better take till to-morrow to consider. The letter was from the only surviving member of a distant branch of the family, which, eschewing the politics which had well nigh caused the ruin of the elder branch, had given all their energies to making money, and had succeeded amazingly: The first part of the letter in question was taken up with explaining to Madame Burrows the genealogy of the two branches, in a most prolix and herald-like fashion. The conclusion was more to the purpose; it was an offer to adopt the younger son, to initiate him in all the mysteries of trade, and finally to make him his successor in the old and wealthy firm of "Burrows and Co.
I am rich enough to do what I like, and I am as desirous to continue a line of British merchants, as other people can be to found a family. I make no mention of your elder son, because he has already enough, and more than enough, and I will have nothing to do with gentlemen. If he does not choose to accept my offer, I shall bequeath my money to a hospital, and break up the concern.
It has been carried on for more than a hundred years, from father to son, and I will not have a stranger for successor. Everhard is a name that has been in the family for generations, so I shall not so much mind his not being my son, but I expect he will bind himself to marry, that there may be no danger of the business going to a still more distant connexion. Our wishes never seem so little desirable as when on the verge of accomplishment; we draw back instinctively, they look so different from what we expected.
Everhard was not at all smitten by the prospect held out to him; he had at the bottom a prejudice against trade, which he had imbibed from his mother; he thought it degrading; added to which, all his natural tastes lay in a directly contrary direction. By a natural reaction of feeling, the way of life which so lately had looked hard and uninviting, seemed clothed with calm and mild dignity. Now that he was free to choose, all desire for a secular life seemed dead within him.
Accordingly, when he met his uncle next day, it was to intimate his fixed intention to follow the profession to which he had always been destined. A grateful letter was accordingly written to Everhard Burrows senior, declining his offer; and Everhard made preparations to depart to Rome. He went to his aunt's dressing-room to take leave of her the morning of his departure. He found her amid a chaos of silks, feathers, and tissues of every conceivable variety, and so engrossed in a privy council for deciding on a presentation dress for the next court day, that she could not spare a moment to show any sensibility, which rather annoyed him.
She embraced him, however, very gracefully, saying, "Well, we shall have you back when you are a priest, and then you shall be my confessor! I wish you would send me some relics from Rome; I cannot meet with any here; if there are any pretty things worked in Lava, get them for me; they will be quite new. Are you a judge of Cameos? I am told you can get those sort of things for nothing there. I wish you were going with me to the ball to-morrow. I shall look out, and solicit the minister for a good thing in the way of a benefice for you.
Be discreet, and you will be sure to become a great man. The walls were hung round with portraits of great men, in the different costumes of cardinals, judges, warriors, who had all in their time been inmates of the college, and there was a prestige , in thus sitting surrounded as it were by the halo of their glory, very calculated to impress the ardent imagination of a young aspirant. But Everhard was not imaginative, and besides, he had no time to pause to gaze round.
He advanced at once to the chair of the Superior, and, bending his knee, kissed the hand that was extended to him. The Superior, a man somewhat advanced in life, with a keen eye and a stern aspect, uttered a few words of encouragement and welcome; then summoning an attendant, desired him to conduct Everhard to the refectory, where supper was already served. Everhard, following his guide in silence, entered the hall where all the inmates of the college were seated at supper, and took the seat indicated to him.
At first, he felt somewhat confused at the idea of encountering the gaze of so many, but not an eye was turned towards him, all continued their supper with the silence and abstraction of Brahmins. A young man at a desk at the upper end of the hall, read aloud out of the works of Cardinal Bellarmine; lay servants passed to and fro with trays on which the dishes were ready carved, and placed them before each; whilst a stately professor paced up and down between the tables to enforce silence and regularity.
The hall was vast and lofty; a carved walnut-wood wainscot ran round the wall with seats for more than a hundred persons; massive tables, raised a step all round, were fixed to the floor.